9.那个星期天

9. That Sunday

1．I still remember my first hope.

2．It was a Sunday, from morning to afternoon, until the sky went down.

3．That Sunday my mother promised to take me out, I don't remember where, maybe to the zoo, or somewhere else.

4. Anyway, she promised a long time ago that she would take me out that Sunday, and that's no mistake; one can't go wrong with looking forward to a day for the first time in one's life.

5. And that very morning, my mother still promised the same thing: Go, of course.

6．I think I got it after all.

7．Get up, brush your teeth, eat, it was a spring morning, the sun was shining.

8．Would you like to go?

9．Wait a while, wait a while before you go.

10．I ran out and stood in front of the street, and waited just a little while.

11．I hid behind the gate and hid for a long time.

12．I knew it wouldn't be that easy to wait for a while, I had to hide without making a sound for a while.

13．Mother came out, but I forgot to scare her, why was she carrying a vegetable basket in her hand?

14．You said go!

15．Wait a minute, I'll go after I buy the groceries.

16．Will you go right after you buy the groceries?

17．Yes.

18．It's not a good time.

19．I jumped on a square brick, jumped on a house, and waited for my mother to come back.

20．I looked at the sky and watched the clouds go, waiting for my mother to come back, anxious and excited.

21．I squatted on the ground where it originated, fiddled with an anthill with a branch, and crawled to find more anthills.

22．I was the only child in the yard, and no one played with me.

23．I sat in the grass and looked through a pictorial, which was basically a movie pictorial that I had seen many times.

24．There was a group of girls older than me on it, all of them very beautiful.

25．I sat in the grass and looked at them, imagining their homes, imagining what they were doing at the moment, imagining their brothers and sisters and their parents, imagining their voices.

26．Last year's barren grass was green again, and the yard was big and empty.

27．Mother came back from the grocery shopping but was busy rummaging through the cupboards again.

28．Let's go. Didn't you say you'd dig back and go?

29．Okay, okay, don't you see I'm busy?

30．It's strange, I'm the one who should be justified, right?

31．No, I've been waiting, didn't my mother promise?

32．All morning I followed my mother's leg: go?

33．Go ahead, let's go, why don't you go?

34．Let's go ...... I just chanted and chased under my mother's legs, watching her do one thing and then go do another.

35．I was not as tall as her legs, and those two non-stop legs are still walking in front of my eyes, they do not stop, they tripped over me several times, and I almost strangled between them several times and knocked them down.

36. In the afternoon, said my mother, in the afternoon, wake up for a nap and then go.

37．Go, said my mother, in the afternoon, you can go.

38．But this time it was my fault, my own fault, I overslept my nap.

39．When I woke up, I saw my mother washing clothes.

40．It wouldn't have been too late to leave then.

41．I looked at the sky, it wasn't too late.

42．Are you still going?

43．Yes.

44．Why don't you go?

45．Finished the laundry.

46．This time I can't forgive.

47．I don't know how long the pile of laundry will take, but my mother should know.

48．I squatted beside her and watched her wash.

49．I didn't say a word and looked forward to it. I don't think I'll ever leave half a step again and never oversleep again.

50. I think as soon as the laundry is done I'll pull her up and go, never let her delay again.

51. I looked at the clothes in the basin and the clothes outside the basin, I looked at the sun, looked at the light, I did not say a word, and suddenly a little bit of understanding.

52. I can still feel the long, rapid change of light, the lonely, melancholy dusk coming, and hear the sound of my mother's click-click-click-rubbing, the sound never-ending like the footsteps of time.

53. That Sunday.

54．That was the day.

55．Mother found the boy crouched there motionless and found him crying, weeping without making a sound.

56．I felt my mother shake the water from her hands in alarm and pull me over into her arms.

57．I heard my mother talking, kissing me as she kept saying, "Oh, I'm sorry, oh, I'm sorry ...... "That Sunday, it was supposed to go out, to where I don't remember.

58. The boy crouched by the big, heavy laundry tub, snuggled in his mother's arms, closed his eyes and stopped looking at the sun, the light was fading irrevocably, a desolation.